Safety Day

I know that even if you were here, you wouldn't have been at safety day.   You should have been in Kindergarten.  Either way, it still made me think of you.   I took Allison today to safety day at school.   I remembered how much fun you had last year.  Safety week truly was one of the best weeks of your life.   You had such a good time every single day last year.  You would be so jealous that her safety goggles are tinted this year.   You would have stole her light up hard hat key chain   You wouldn't have minded that it was raining, you just would have loved it.  

Caught off guard

I still get caught off guard when I am out shopping.  I see things you would love and I think about buying them for you....then I remember you aren't here anymore.   Saw the coolest spiderman shirt today.   You would have loved it....it was a running shirt.

Another big snow

11 inches....you would be so excited.     Makes me miss you so much more.    I wish you were here to play with.    I can't believe it's been almost 11 months, which means the one year mark is closing in.    So many days, I'd just love to give up and be with you.    Love you so much.

Happy Birthday....a day late

Yesterday was your birthday.   You should be 6 years old now.   I should have a 6 year old.   There was a snow/cold day from school for your birthday.   We had tacos for you to celebrate although it didn't feel like much of a celebration without you here.    I wonder if you would have still loved army men or if you would have asked for something else this time.   What kind of party would you have wanted?   Camo?  Army?  Ninja turtles?  Something new?    I hate not knowing what you would be into by this time...a lot changes in 10 months.   I hope you had the best birthday party ever in heaven.   

:-(

Really missing you today.   Valentines day is 2 days away, your birthday is 6 days away.    I can't believe you are gone....sometimes it still seems like you will come back sometime.   It is hard to think that 20 or 30 years from now, you will still be gone.     I just can't get used to life without you.   Almost 10 months, a lifetime still seems impossible.   

Valentine shopping

Finished getting ready for Thomas and Allison for school.  This is so incredibly unfair.   You should be here.  You should be signing up to take things to school.   You should be getting ready for your first school play.    I hate it without you.

It is coming....

Your birthday.....is going to come without you just like everything else.    I hope you are planning one awesome party in heaven because the one down here isn't looking too happy :-(