Too long

It's been too long....I miss you so much.   Too long since I've seen your face or rubbed your head.   Too long since I've carried  you to bed after you fell asleep.    I don't feel like I can do this forever.   I want you to come back so bad.    Life was better with you in it.  

Graduation

You should have graduated from kindergarten yesterday.  You should be in first grade.   All of the boys and girls were walking into school all dressed up.   I wanted to tell them you were missing.   Love you sweet boy.

Kindergarten Graduation

You should be graduating from kindergarten this week.    I wonder if you would have passed.  I know you were a smart boy.   You were also such a suborn boy.  It would have been so hard for you to sit still and listen and behave.   I wonder how your year would have gone.   I wish you were here to enjoy your summer break with us.   I guess heaven is more fun for you, but it sure isn't for us.

18 years

18 years....that is how long the young man who killed you will spend in prison, possibly only 15.   You are worth so much more than that.    I wish he knew how much we missed you and your crazy little self.   Miss you so much sweet boy.

Mothers Day

Mothers Day minus you is just not the same....I miss you so much.   

Mothers Day Tea

Today I should have taken the day off.   I should have dressed you up in your Sunday best.   We should have been together at the Kindergarten Mothers Day Tea.     I miss you so much.  

Best Buddy

Allison misses her "best buddy"......she misses playing with you and making trouble with you.    Thomas doesn't play with her the way that you did.   She had a constant playmate and best friend and brother all in one.   It is so unfair that it was taken away from her and from you.   We all miss you so much.   We had steak for dinner, your favorite.   It just isn't the same.    I saw my old zoo pass in my purse that said "3 children" today, just can't bring myself to get rid of it.   Our insurance card still has your name on it.   I dread the day when the one will come and you are left off.   Love you sweet boy.