Can't do this again

Can't do the holidays without you again   I want to be anywhere, but here.   I want to be with you.   I want to be loved and important.   I want you back.   I hate this life without you.

Missing you

Hey buddy
I miss you so much (nothing new, right!?)   That time of year to wonder what you'd be for Halloween or to wonder if you would be running cross country.   Maybe you would have picked something new.   I wonder what size clothes I would be buying for you this fall and how big you would be.   I just miss everything about you and I hate all of the wondering.   I just want you here with me.   Where you belong.    Love you so much.

Cross country season

You should be out there running this year......a gator usually leads the race.....you'd be first in line to chase after it, no doubt.   I decorated your vase for Halloween, I hope you like it.   I miss you so much sweet boy.

1st Grade

1st Grade....it's where you should be right now.   You would know how to read some....and how to write so much better.    You would have spelling words and homework (that you would hate!!).    I am missing watching you grow up so much.   It just isn't right at all.   Allison will be in Mrs Sonyas class very soon....in your room.   It is going to be soooo hard to watch her be older than you in a few months.   Love you buddy!!

Not fair

I want you back....here....where you belong.   I feel like everyone has gotten used to you being gone, everyone except for me.   I didn't sign up for this life without you.   These should have beens are killing me.   You should be running cross country, going to your cousins birthday parties, getting ready for first grade......I hate it.

Walt is 6

....and I find myself asking why I didn't get to see you turn 6.   I wonder what kind of party you would have had.  I miss you so much sweet boy.   Love you.

Swingset

We had to take the swing set down....it was old and getting dangerous.    You would have loved helping daddy and Grandpa build the new one.   You were very missed out there.   It was sad to get rid of the one you made so many memories on.    We've missed you all summer....wish you were here getting ready for first grade.