Bad day

I miss you so much today.    I would do almost anything to have you back.    Can't wait until I can see you again.

Gator

Hey buddy.....I cleaned your gator out for you today.   The battery is dead.   The dandelions you picked in April were all still in the back, brown and dead.    I vacuumed it out and cleaned it up.   It hadn't been touched since you've been gone.   I also cleaned your bike up today.   I know you aren't coming back to use it, but I'm not sure I want to part with it.   Missing you so much more than usual today.    Allison erased  the last pictures you drew on the chalkboard in the garage.  I'm glad I had already gotten a picture of them.    We don't spend as much time out in the garage without you here.   You had all of your shovels and lawnmowers out there and loved to play in the ditch and dig in the yard.    I still can't understand why you had to be taken from us.

Sleep

I just can't sleep without you here.   Everything is all wrong.   I just lay awake wishing you were here.   This is all just so very unfair.   Are you having fun?   I know you are well taken care of, but I wish it was me taking care of you.   Our house is all wrong and seems so empty without you.    Love you so much sweet boy.   

Kindergarten

Yesterday should have been your first day of kindergarten.   You should have been following Thomas into school.   I should have been walking you in, taking pictures.    You should have been giving some poor teacher a hard time because we all know that you would not have behaved (we loved you either way!).   I hate that you (and we) are missing out on so much.    It's not fair.

Holiday World

Another thing that jus wasn't right without you.   We went to holiday world yesterday.    Missed you so much.   You had no fear.  You loved to ride and slide and do anything you were tall enough to do.    I missed riding with you so much and it made me realize just how hard Disney world is going to be without you.   I'd love to just cancel the trip and never go again.   I know Thomas and Allison still want to go though.    I hate all of these things without you.   You should be right here with us. 

No words

No words to describe it.   I just miss you so much.  

Your toolbench

I just moved your toolbench downstairs.....I will probably keep it forever, but I think it was time to move it.    I hate it.   I put the little table and a chair in it's place for Allison.   The corner looks all wrong now.   I am so angry that you aren't here.    On days like today, I would so much rather just come be with you than be stuck here.    Today is Walt's birthday party.   Just like last year, you wouldn't understand why you don't get to have yours at nana and papaw's house.   I wish you hadn't been able to see that there were differences in the way that people were treated, but you already understood.    I am so sorry that I didn't do more to stand up for you.   I love you so much.

15 weeks

15 weeks without you as of yesterday.    Things are worse every day.    I miss you so much.   I took Thomas out for school supplies.  You should have been getting yours for the first time this year.   Everything without you feels all wrong.   Seems as though everyone's worlds are moving on without you except for mine.   I want nothing more than to just have you back or somedays just to come be with you.