12/31/15

The end of a whole year where you didn't exist.    And it sucked.    I just want you back.    I'd love to take all 3 of you and move away and start over like I should have done long ago.    If we didn't still live here, maybe you'd still be with us.     I can't believe I still have to live this life without you.   I miss you so much sweet boy.  

A second Chirstmas without you

I miss you sooooo much this year.   I don't know what you would like or what you would have asked for.   Would you still love Santa?    Would you still like army men?   Would  you still get up at the crack of dawn?   I would still give anything to have you back.    Anything.    Your stocking will hang empty again.    I'm fighting with Daddy again.....nothing new these days.   I feel like I'll never be good enough.   I just want you here.   All of my kids.