Miss you

Tomorrow is another Thursday, that marks another week without you.   I decorated your vase for fall today.   I hope you like the little scarecrow and the squirrel.   I miss you so much.   I am still dreading Disney without you.    I can't believe you really won't be there.   I guess looking at the future it is still so hard to believe you aren't coming back.    I found your dressy black socks today.   I must have missed them when I bagged up your socks.   Your clothes are still in a box.    Not sure I'll ever part with your things.    I wish they still smelled like you. 

Trunk or Treat

Yet another first without you.   You had so much fun last year sitting on the tailgate of Grandpas truck handing out their candy.    You loved complimenting people on their costumes.    You loved to dress up.   I saw a navy seal this year and a captain hook.   They both made me think of you and how cute you would have looked as either one.   5 more days until Disney world without you.    I am dreading it soooo much.

9 days until Disney World

......without you.   I am not looking forward to this without you.   I feel like we are doing something wrong.   Everything is wrong.   You should be there in your Mickey ears begging for pirate swords and hooks and light sabers (not much else at Disney in the way of weapons!).    You would love all of the villians that will be out for the Halloween party.  The bad guys were always your favorite.    Last time we rode the Goofy rollercoaster with you over and over.    You loved Tower of Terror and Big Thunder Mountain Railroad, you really didn't have any fear.  You never did.    I miss my brave little boy.

6 months

6 months without our sweet boy.   This doesn't even seem possible.   Life is so wrong without you in it.    No words really describe how much I miss you today.    Love you so so much.

Miss you

I just miss you.....that's all.    Wish so much that you were here with me.    I wish there was some way for us to be together.

Allison had a birthday and Halloween thoughts

Your sister turned 4 yesterday.   She had a Doc McStuffins party.   We missed you so much.   I could imagine you there sticking your fingers in the icing and helping her open her gifts.   It is so wrong to celebrate when you are not here, you loved to party!    I let Thomas get the Halloween decorations out.   You must have shoved one of your (real) white pumpkins in the tub of decorations when we put them away.   It still looks perfect.   I wish you were here to see it.   I also found your trick or treat bag that you should be using for candy.    I can only imagine what you would be this year....some type of soldier, a toy story army man, captain hook.   I think those would be among your top choices.   It is getting so close to 6 months without you.    I miss you so much buddy.