10 weeks tomorrow

10 weeks tomorrow....70 days.....doesn't seem possible.    I miss you so much today.   Our summer is nothing like I had planned.    Ours days are made up of therapy appointments, grief counseling, dr appointments, allergy shots.     I had planned fun days for all of you.....not days without you.    It is still so hard to accept that I have to live the rest of my life like this.    I don't want this life.  I don't want to live it.    Days like today I wish that it had been me instead of you.....or I wish I could come and be with you.     Nothing will ever be right without you here.