5 months

5 months.   Today is the first day of fall.   We spent the whole summer without you.   Winter clothes are out, this is the first season I will have bought you nothing for.    Halloween costumes are out.   It was one of your favorite holidays since you liked to dress up so much.    I bet you would have been captain hook or an army man this year.   I'm so sorry I wouldn't let you have a sword for Halloween last year, at least your navy seal costume had a knife.    Disney is getting closer.....and you won't be there.   I still can't imagine how it is going to be without you.    Every day seems to be a little harder without you here.   I got a quilt rack for your blankets.   I'd love to sit and snuggle with them every day, but I don't want to wear them out.    Still just can't accept the fact that you are not coming back.