Christmas

It took me a few days.....So hard to put into words how awful Christmas was without you.   Now that I know how it is without you, I'm dreading next year more than I did this year.    Your stocking remained empty.   There were no gifts for you under the tree.    You weren't running down the hall to see what Santa brought you.    You didn't go to dinner with Grandma or to church for Christmas Eve.  You didn't go to Nana's house or Shari's house.    We came to visit you at the cemetery.   I hate that you are there.   That you will always be there.   I know you aren't really even there but it is the closest I have to being with you.    I hate that some of the people you should have been most important to didn't even acknowledge that you were gone.  You did get a lot of special ornaments, from the most unexpected people.    You also got some wind chimes.   A few places received gifts in your honor to share with other boys and girls.    A bench will go in your playground at church with your name on it.   I'd gladly sit on the ground instead if I could watch you play.