4th of July

I am trying to figure out a way to skip Christmas without you.   Every day without you is hard, but I didn't expect 4th of July to be much harder than a regular day.   Now that it was so hard....not sure how to do Christmas without you in a few months.    I find every day gets a little bit harder without you here.   I would love to hug you instead of hugging your blanket.    I have no idea how to do this forever.